Life.

Posted in Uncategorized on April 27, 2009 by theonlybloodbetweenus

So for those not in the know re: My life. I spent a few days in hospital at the start of this year after returning from Fiji with a pretty bad infection.

I was bedded next to this older guy called Alan who had been in hospital for something like six months with a myriad of infections and heart problems. He talked a lot but was a general nice dude, I got to meet his wife and children and we shared a few movies and ruling conversations; he and his wife even had their 20 year wedding anniversary right next to me. It was clear that the lengthy time in hospital had really got to him; he was pretty stubborn with the nurses and kind of gave up on a lot of things that might have helped him. But he kept trucking along and told me on more then one occasion that the only thing really keeping him going was returning to his kids.

I had kinda forgotten about him till saturday when i saw his name under the death notices in the paper. Life fucking sucks sometimes.

I also saw someone i hadn’t seen in a long time this weekend. They had pretty much turned into exactly the person i was wishing they wouldn’t become, but atleast i got some closure.

Have a good life, even if you won’t be able to remember most of it.

New List – Things I’ll be spending my Krudd money on:

  • Car service
  • Uni books
  • Ts-9

4 Days

Posted in Uncategorized on April 5, 2009 by theonlybloodbetweenus

There is only four more days till the holidays and it honestly cannot come any sooner.

Uni has been awesome in so many ways but I hate how I hardly ever get to see any of my friends now. Everyone is so busy with their own shit that they don’t really have time for anyone else. I miss being able to meet up with everyone twice a day and just talk shit and write each other off.

I’m looking forward too seeing everyone again and raging/meeting for coffee/jamming/seeing movies/pwning cnts at xbox/drinking scotch/having a few seshs and forgetting about law/economics for a few weeks.

And now for my list; My family are  going away for a week so here’s a list of things i plan to do while they are away:

  • Use my parents bathroom
  • Shit with to door open
  • Eat exclusively microwaveable food only
  • Hook the xbox up to the plasma
  • Hold a few ‘gatherings’
  • Play guitar really loud

Bai

Love Will Tear Us Apart

Posted in Uncategorized on March 27, 2009 by theonlybloodbetweenus

So I’m in love.

She’s amazing, she’s cute and she’s smart.

She just dosn’t really know i exist beyond the hour or so we are in class together each week.

Im way to ball-less to actually speak to her yet, so for now i’m happy just to post creepy blogs about her.

Now for my new list – Things i could (but probably wont) spend my 5k scholarship on

  • Hookers and Blow
  • A New Car
  • JCM 900 and a 1960a cab
  • Contiki Europe Tour
  • A donation to get Converge to tour

Uni Life

Posted in Uncategorized on March 13, 2009 by theonlybloodbetweenus

So i started uni and shit a few weeks ago these are a few things i’ve learnt:

  • It’s hard
  • No one knows anyone
  • 76.87% of all law students are fuckwits
  • The lines for text books are really long
  • There is at least 3 people on facebook during a lecture at any one time
  • It’s really hard

Mysterious Skin

Posted in Uncategorized on February 20, 2009 by theonlybloodbetweenus

I feel so fucking numb right now…

Things I’ve done this week

Posted in Uncategorized on February 19, 2009 by theonlybloodbetweenus

- Destroyed everyone at Mariokart
- Got drunk
- Lost my keycard
- Wore a toga
- Let copious amounts of foam destroy my phone
- Opened an email saying I’m being given $5000

I like O Week

Things Currently Ruling My Life

Posted in Uncategorized on January 28, 2009 by theonlybloodbetweenus

- Madden 09

- Joy Division – The BBC Sessions

- Wild Turkey

- Midday Sleep-ins

Control

Posted in Uncategorized on November 21, 2008 by theonlybloodbetweenus

I can’t believe how one seemingly insignificant event can alter my whole perspective on things. It’s a complete mind fuck knowing that something incredibly important basically rests on the flip of a coin. I hate the fact that I can’t do anything. I can’t make things ok. I’m sorry.

I need control. I need things to back to how they were this morning.

I’m going to Sydney tomorrow for No Apologies, it should be good, hopefully I can leave this behind and forget about it for a while. Then I head down the coast to stay with some amazing dudes. I’m looking forward to drinking Coopers late into the afternoon and running on the beach to a soundtrack mainly comprised of Brand New. My main goal of the week will be getting MJ to smile…a hard task I know, but the dude needs to cheer up.

It seems…

Posted in Uncategorized on October 26, 2008 by theonlybloodbetweenus

It seems that whenever I get what I want its not what it seems or I somehow push it all away…

I told myself that things would change and get better. The jury’s still out…

#1

Posted in Uncategorized on October 13, 2008 by theonlybloodbetweenus

I’ve written a few stories (some good and some bad) for the creative writing course I’m doing a school currently. Most of my ramblings will never see the light of day, but some I guess I would like to share. I’ve always found it hard to write about particularly ‘posi’ stuff so I tend to stick to darker pieces. I took inspiration for this story initially from a piece written by BGO user: Cammobreed written here: (sometimesthingsjustdisappear.blogspot.com), he dosn’t really know about it but yeah maybe now he will. I aimed to write a minimalistic piece…judging by most people not having a clue about what I’m talking about I guess I suceeded…

Dust gathered from the unsealed road retreated to form my handprint over the faded metal. The bonnet of the car was still cold in the early morning sun. Just as I had remembered Old Smith’s Road slithered its way upward, weaving in and out of the tress as it slowly made progress along the hillside. The long drive had proved not in the least bit helpful; not an inch of my body felt the need to sleep, yet the dark bags under my eyes made my face look like death in the metallic reflection.

The end of the Old Smith’s marks a transition as the trail parts ways with the trees and falls into a clearing littered with wild blossoms that stand out amongst the thick mat of grass. The wind hit my face with a reassuring sense of familiarity, bringing with it that faint odour of salt, the kind that stirs up distant memories. Random tussocks of scrub stood permanently bent over on the edge of the cliff ahead, crippled by a constant breeze that flowed up through its escarpment. I reached down and picked up a flower lying crushed between the weathered tread marks of another vehicle. Its petals still retained the vibrant cobalt of the others; the bent stem was the only sign that it was dead.

Just a short walk on from the clearing laid a lookout that watches over a vast valley of trees as they dip toward the sea. I thought about the many late afternoons I had spent there on the thick wooden bench perched near the edge staring out into the horizon, my feet rested on my bike. Often in the follies of my youth I would convince one the older children in town to buy me a packet of tobacco, rolling and smoking them by myself on the bench as I waited for the sunset.

The lookout was the same as it had always been, but yet looked so unfamiliar at the same time. Here the grass tussocks had made their way from the cliff’s edge and begun to strangle the seat amongst a wave of overgrown weeds. The bench itself stood weak and slim against the tide of vegetation, its bolts had rusted to a fine powder. Reaching out it felt like it was about to collapse under the weight of my own hand. I used to fall down across its wide seat out of breath from the ride up the hill. I thought best of taking a seat, choosing instead to lay my jacket over the backrest as I sat down amongst the tangle of the ground.

The rocks from the lookout dropped off steeply towards the trees some fifty metres below. I spat off the edge and watched as the wind threw my saliva about and dispersed it before it hit the treetops. No fence had ever been erected here; this place was from a different time and had been long forgotten. The canopy looked so fluffy from this height, as it was almost a gigantic bed. My tired eyes made it look so tempting…

The valley looked as if they had faded since the last time we had met. Yet it still looked so stunning as the trees danced with each other in the wind, covering the earth in a sepia blanket. Each tree moved in perfect timing with the other as if every action had been painstakingly rehearsed; Mother Nature’s triumph over logistics. The back of my lungs screamed for a cigarette but I let the call fall on deaf ears. I was witnessing for both the first and last time the unrivalled beauty of something so unintended and untouched; the need to fill my lungs with smoke seemed so trivial. The trees around the lookout seemed so lonely and weak, empty bottles and wrappers were strewn around their bases.

A series of electrical towers ran away from the lookout along a ridge that eventually plunged into the ocean. They were nothing special just the type you see everywhere. Loose dust pelleted into my face making my eyes watery, but yet the towers refused to shift even in the slightest. It seemed as if they were a mirage upon the landscape in front of me. I lit up a cigarette.

I placed the broken flower in a modest vase on the bedside table as I returned home. The walls were still grey, the sun had not yet fully peeked its head above the mountains. Nothing in the room moved. I had never felt so awake.

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